The above is an actual shot of my car one day, featuring a slice of lime and carton of eggs.
Sometimes when I look back over the posts I’ve written, I think, wow, maybe I do have my act together! I’m quite the composting, meditating, conscious little queen over here.
(Also, maybe that was not your impression. Regardless….)
I do not have my act together! And while I do write honestly about goals and good habits and cultivating a conscious culture, I fail at quite a few things on a regular basis. Here’s 7 of them, just to round out the picture and keep things real:
1. Writing Consistently
At the beginning of each week, it seems very reasonable to think I will get up early to write on these days, and write during my breaks on these other days. And then I snooze my alarm in the mornings, and pull out my phone on my breaks. And hence, write only sporadically. This is not my goal.
2. Confronting People Who Scare Me
Yes, grown woman here. Still afraid of people, and in particular, of disappointing them. This week, for example, after psyching myself up and praying to the Holy Spirit, I went to my bosses office to tell her when my last day would be. Only when I got there I freaked and instead just said, “Hey, do you want me to email you when I find out my last day?” Which is awkward when she gets that email just a few hours later. Total failure.
3. Exercising Consistently
I’ve been able to ski every Friday morning, which makes me feel simultaneously like the luckiest girl in the world and also that I have reached my weekly quota for physical exertion. So I’m not doing nada, just nada six days of the week, aside from the random guilt burpee. This should probably change?
4. Meditating on Friday Mornings
That’s the day I go skiing. Priorities, failed.
5. Convincing My Math Students That They Can Do It
Either they think they can’t do it, or they don’t want to do it, or both. I don’t know what to do.
6. Arriving at Work Early
I prefer to slide in about 60 seconds late, thank you very much.
7. Performing a Thorough Examination of Conscience Daily
Perhaps that subconscious guilt that has been piling up is the secret motivator for this post. There’s no way of knowing.
So What Am I Doing About It?
I’m just going to wake up each morning and try again. I’m going to (hopefully remember to) ask my guardian angel to help me do better. I’m going to pick one aspect of failure and nail that first.
Writing out that list was quite discouraging in some ways, but I also really like laying it all out that way. It shows me where I need grace, which is another way of showing me where my secret weapons are.
“My power is perfected in weakness.” (2 Cor. 12:9)
So this is the point where, typically, I ask you something along the lines of, ‘so what are you failing at and would you like to share that with us in the comments?’ Buuutttt I think I will change it up for today.
How have you seen grace working in your life recently? Share it with us in the comments!
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